( calling it out for what it is... shining a spotlight does often provide a harsh sort of illumination, doesn't it? and is it really so bad? Ben can't help how unsettling it feels for Will to peel this open, or...resetting a bone. the ache, and the relief, are equal.
they're perfectly mirrored, and it has him feeling whole...in a way Ben isn't sure he has felt since—
he can't think about it. not that it's painful, or difficult, but the sensation of pain feels blocked in his brain, suddenly. even when Will speaks, 'I really want...this to work,' he doesn't hear Yukito's voice in his ears, and he doesn't hear the foreboding and unspoken 'however' at its end. )
Do you suppose...this world is— ( Ben's face pinches in, uncertain, brow twitching and lip curling up to hide between his teeth. ) ...Trying to give us something? ( give them, show them, teach them? it feels too purposeful. why rip them out of the comfort of something familiar, even if disappointing, and throw them into a mixture of chaos? why do radios whisper back conversations he'd had as a child? why does he see shadows of the things he has invested his life to keep at bay? Ben can't fight the universe, he knows that. he's a modest academic with a weird guardian angel and a singular life, he's not really very special.
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they're perfectly mirrored, and it has him feeling whole...in a way Ben isn't sure he has felt since—
he can't think about it. not that it's painful, or difficult, but the sensation of pain feels blocked in his brain, suddenly. even when Will speaks, 'I really want...this to work,' he doesn't hear Yukito's voice in his ears, and he doesn't hear the foreboding and unspoken 'however' at its end. )
Do you suppose...this world is— ( Ben's face pinches in, uncertain, brow twitching and lip curling up to hide between his teeth. ) ...Trying to give us something? ( give them, show them, teach them? it feels too purposeful. why rip them out of the comfort of something familiar, even if disappointing, and throw them into a mixture of chaos? why do radios whisper back conversations he'd had as a child? why does he see shadows of the things he has invested his life to keep at bay? Ben can't fight the universe, he knows that. he's a modest academic with a weird guardian angel and a singular life, he's not really very special.
is this...why? )